Happy Anniversary, Aleigh!

I know I'm a little late but I wanted to wish Aleigh Joy a Happy Anniversary on the one year mark of her baptism into the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints which took place on June 14th.  Because of her decision generations of my family will be affected.  It's hard to believe that a cute little 19 year old could be so important to my family's eternal link to each other.  Because she chose to embrace the gospel of Jesus Christ she will be sealed to my son and their children and their children and so on and so on.  She will raise my beloved grandchildren the way that I raised my beloved children and there is nothing in this world that brings me greater joy and happiness.  All of my sons have married girls that were raised in our faith so when Hunter fell in love with Aleigh my heart was very troubled because I knew that Hunter could never be happy raising his children outside of his faith but I also knew that he loved Aleigh very much.  Ours is not an easy religion to embrace.  We are not "one hour on Sunday" Christians.  Our religion is a way of life and not an easy one if you aren't used to it.  She embraced it more fully than most people who have been born into it do.  When she entered the waters of baptism my prayers were answered.  Happy Anniversary, Aleigh Joy.  You may never know how much your decision has affected my life and how much it means to me.  I love you:)

Oh No!

Since today was the last day of my daughter's junior year of high school that makes her technically a senior now.  Nooooooo!!!!!  I can't stand it!  I already started crying today.  Yep.  I get to look forward to a whole year of "lasts".  I know I shouldn't think of it that way but I can't help it.  I am going to die when she leaves for college.  That will be the end of my child raising.  I really can't think about it too much or I will fall apart.  I'm going to bed now and not thinking about it.

May Blahs

I think I'm the only person in the world who gets sad at the end of a school year.  Everyone else is looking forward to no school and summer fun and no schedule.  All I feel is that it's the end.  I think of the seniors all over the world who are so sad to leave their friends and so scared to start a new life.  I think of the fact that we have endless days ahead of no set schedule and nothing much planned to do.  Mostly I think of the end of the most fun time of my life, high school with my teenagers.  6 of them have finished high school and it was some of the saddest times of my life to go to their graduations.  It meant that they would be leaving me and starting their own lives.  This week marks the last time I will have a high schooler in my life past this date.  Next year my sweet Van will graduate and leave me and I will have no wonderful children in my home.  I'm crying as I write.  I always live through it and even enjoy summers but just for these few days each year I have a heavy heart.